Fairy Tale Endings…

{{journal_mood blank}} Kind of sad, the park I remembered is either gone or they are redoing it. It has been a while since I was down in that area but I did walk along the pier for a while which I haven’t done in a very long time. That was nice. Perhaps I am being a romantic, and I appreciate Hermes indulging me in this, I really would like to find Lost Love. If nothing else but to say I am sorry. I doubt it will happen; I searched around for him and couldn’t find a trace. I would love […]

The Past…

{{journal_mood happy}} Since I am in such a good mood, I wanted to do something for myself. I really wanted to edit and rewrite my entry titled “A Lost Love…” (noted in my links). I thought a lot about what I had written and just didn’t feel it represented the true feelings I have for this person. I touched it up, fixed some bugs, and added a few things and well; just in general I think portrayed my feelings better. Plus I was talking to Sex Hound last night and he brought up something as I was telling him about […]

Men Alert!

{{journal_mood naughty}} Last night turned out really good. I didn’t get to bed any earlier than normal but I was able to go without the mountain of stress that seems to be looming over me. As for the person who didn’t call me back, towards the later part of my day, I did finally come to terms with the small hill I was making out of it. (And yet even later found out something had come up making it difficult for them to call me back.) Stuff like that needs to go away; my poor thoughts are just too crowded […]

Dark Corners….

{{journal_mood uncomfortable}} Ok…. To much stuff piling on to my mind right now. Dazzle is hounding me about all sorts of things via instant messenger and I’ve already lost my temper once and said some things I should have said nicer. Part of what he’s panicking about is money and wants me to pay for some things I wasn’t expecting. I’ve been going a bit crazy lately buying stuff for the holidays and for the first time in many years went below my safely line in money … way below. I’m wasn’t worried about it but then my little brother, […]

Morning Roll Call

{{journal_mood annoyed}} Aggravating morning, last night the whole neighborhood lost power for three very long hours. Starting at around 7:30pm till 10:45pm, at first it was kind of fun though I was in the middle of doing something. It was cool to look down the hill and in to the valley that the house looks over and see this whole area just pitch black. By 8:30 or 9 it was kind of getting boring and the surprisingly was getting very chilly. I never realized how well the furnace heats the house until then. I laid down for a bit to […]

A Lost Love…

{{journal_mood nostalgic}} I was talking to Hermes today and catching him up on stuff. As we were chatting, he got me thinking about someone from my past. I was telling him about my companies Holiday Party and how I am not going even though everyone keeps asking, after four years of not attending they still keep asking me to come which makes me feel a tad-bit guilty. Hermes kept saying I should go and bring so and so, I finally admitted that when I finally go I want to bring someone that I would love to show off, spend the […]

Sleep, friends and healing….

{{journal_mood blah}} I really need to be getting better sleep. I finally drug myself to bed at 1am last night, not to long after I wrote my last entry. I woke up this morning and had a throbbing headache from sleeping weird (I think I slept on my head … don’t ask, I don’t understand it either). Of course I slept right through my alarm which further irritated me since I did actually wake up when it went off. Somehow I managed to keep hitting snooze for almost three hours without even realizing it. Then traffic was beyond annoying today. […]

Movie Night

{{journal_mood sleepy}} Just a quick update … I hope. I had a great day, chatted with Hermes for a bit and then went to dinner and saw a movie with Boy Wonder. We went and watched Aeon Flux which wasn’t too bad actually. I know it’s not received the best reviews but it is an interesting story and was fun to see. I don’t think Boy Wonder was too impressed, I guess there is a comic book or something with her? I never heard of it so to me it was just a fun flick. We then went and got […]

The Monday Update!

{{journal_mood cheerful}} So tired! I stayed up way to late last night but I couldn’t help it. First, I went driving around yesterday. It was rather nice, the night I was talking to Sex Hound I some how managed to wind myself around and actually kind of a got lost. Not a real good idea at 11 pm. I am actually very good with being lost and finding my way back out (in real life, not in these dang online games). So it was more fun then scary. So yesterday I decided to go back and see where I was […]

Gut Feelings….

{{journal_mood confused}} You know what really irritates me right now. I know what I want to do, what I should do that will help me feel better but you know those feelings you get? The ones that everyone calls their "gut" feelings, those specific feelings that are very strong (almost overwhelming) and you know they are saying .this’ is important (either good or bad). Well, what I want to do and what my "gut" is telling me are two radically different things. These deep down feelings tell me what I want to do is wrong and not a good idea. […]