Catch Up!

{{journal_mood impressed}} Christmas was awful and then it was followed by a dreadful New Years. Actually both of the actual days where fine, it just wasn’t what I had hoped. I don’t make resolutions or goals for myself at the beginning of the year, I’ve found that they get altered and changed as time moves forward. For the most part my life is adjusted and altered around those I care about, I enjoy that very much and live for the unexpected and the quick changes (or curves) life throws you. For me, I have been fighting off the chilling feeling […]

Following your path….

{{journal_mood hopeful}} If there was one place you could go what would it be? Would you search out your dream vacation? Would you seek the place that makes you relax? Would you follow your dreams and go do what you have feared the most? Would you start your search for glory and fame? Or would you simply say, "My journey is myself and I’m already on that path." Sometimes discovery of ones inner self is the biggest and most rewarding discovery yet to be done. When you discover yourself, you will find that you can go where ever you want […]

Quick Update…

{{journal_mood rejected}} Just a quick update for the moment and actually a semi good one at that! Last night I think something finally snapped and the stress and pressure that has been building just hit top and my mind tossed it. I wish I could say what triggered it but honestly I don’t know. Perhaps it was Boy Wonder calling me all day which made me feel good about knowing him and having him in my life but really I think my mind just said enough and closed down that portion of the grey matter that was freaking out. Yes […]

Freak….I want off this stupid ride!

{{journal_mood worried}} Worried….. I was really out of it last night, emotions running ramped and worrying about things that I just don’t need to worry about. Hermes and I played around in the new game Boy Wonder got me in to but I was so distracted I didn’t realize I had fun. I hate that feeling … I was having fun … but I was just stressing on everything and never realized I was enjoying myself. I know not to stress, I really do. I have nothing to really stress on. Ok, maybe Boy Wonder getting the job but honestly, […]

What? An Update…NO!

{{journal_mood stressed}} To all who have called or emailed, sorry! I have just been a tad bit to stressed out lately and needing some time to myself. Things are good, actually very good yet I am just really stressed out from making sure everything is good. Well, maybe I am just stressed out knowing all is good and all is set on its course which will make life happier but with my stress level as high as it is, I am worrying that I am going to blow it. I really have gone out of my way and then some […]

Stressing Out!

{{journal_mood stressed}} Update … update … update…. Stress … stress and more stress. I have only a few minutes before I have to rush off and do something else but I wanted to post an update. I have our Administrative Holiday Luncheon here in an hour which will be fun but I am so very stressed out that part of me is excited the other part wants to just pass out. I’ve got way too much on my mind lately. Eventually I will share what some of this stress is but right now I am holding it a close secret […]

Late Monday Morning Update…

{{journal_mood stressed}} An interesting day! I never had a chance to do my Monday update but had I it would have started off as down right shitty day. Turning into slightly too much by mid-day to overwhelming by day end. I had way too much going on at work, several meetings and tracking down people and then nothing but constant none-stop interruptions from my fellow co-workers. Not really all that bad normally but my poor emotions finally started to cave under the pressure and I went flying down hill fast. Right now, I am a bit tired and still stressed […]

On..off…on…off…

{{journal_mood nauseated}} I don’t know what I want to say. Started off as a very good day and then ended poorly. Just kind of drained from all these emotions and junk floating around, I was really enjoying my day and it seems just the tinniest thing upsets me and sets off this torrent of junk running around in my head like a bull dozer. Sometimes I just wish I could stop feeling … I just wish I didn’t care and could be, as they say, cold as stone. I am just tired of these racing emotions which now are here […]

Pass the remote my way please…

{{journal_mood calm}} I am kind of not in the mood to write. I did some writing last night, kind of just a moment to jot down some things going through my head. I just felt there was too much floating around and starting to overwhelm me. My day yesterday went from excellent to ok to aggravating to sad and then to really depressed back up to sad and then to good. I am just getting tired of these mood swings and honestly tired of them controlling my life. I know what I need to do and I am doing it, […]

Danger Will Robinson…MOOD Change Alert!

{{journal_mood energetic}} Ok, well … ummm … weird. I am in an incredibly good mood at the moment. I have been in it since I woke up. I had a throbbing headache and just now took some aspirins to kill it but I am still in a good mood. I really don’t know why my mood is 200% better than usual except for the fact that I know what is going on in my life and what needs fixed. I talked with Hermes last night who really was going out of his way (and then some) not only to be […]