Hidding!

{{journal_mood disappointed}} I didn’t go to the coast; I ended up driving around and chatting with Sex Hound for several hours. It was a great conversation and incredibly helpful. It was just nice to get to catch-up and share about stuff in both our lives. Plus he’s one of those friends that I can talk about guys with and we both can start drooling without anyone looking at us funny. I can’t wait until we have some time to go do something; our conversation brought back the fun of us hanging around and just boy watching for a while. Another […]

My Defination of Relaxing….

{{journal_mood chipper}} Relaxing…. Ok, I’ve been thinking more about that simple little word. I need to figure out what "I" need to do to relax. So naturally, I jumped in the car and turned up the music. I have an incredible sound system in my car; you can feel the pulse of sound on everything including the seats and outside mirrors. You can actually feel the hair on your head vibrating with the beat of the music when it’s loud. Another great thing brought to me by an awesome job from Mr. Installer. Now, if you are paying attention. Hermes […]

Patients .. Relax ..

{{journal_mood sad}} Ok this patients thing is killing me. I know … I know relax and go with the flow but I’ve been going with the flow for so long … ugg. Ok, relaxing I guess. It just sucks when the things you want are within your grasp yet they are unobtainable at this time. So no matter how hard you reach, you never can reach the whole way. What’s really annoying is all the things I really want are wrapped around the hardest things to obtain. If I could throw money at them I would, hell I would throw […]

Friday…Friday…Friday!

{{journal_mood groggy}} Journal update time! OMG, let’s see. I have only done the tiniest bit of work, mostly chatting with my co-workers about work issues including our network consultant who is working on some firewall issues for me. The rest of the time has been answering personal emails. I do believe I have created a monster. For each of you that have gotten small books today in the form of an email, sorry. I just wanted to answer the best I could and well, have some fun. Yeah I know most of them have been about things going on with […]

Thank you!

{{journal_mood ecstatic}} To whom ever watches above, thank you! Choices in life are hard and some are even harder than one might think. However, when we look at a choice, sometimes we have to decide just which one we’ll take. For those who know me, the easy route is not my choice. I always take the harder one. Why? It’s more interesting and though I probably will come out battered and bruised, I will come out. So to who ever watches over me above, thank you so very much for showing me a light, beacon or just a glimpse that […]

Angels Up High

{{journal_mood determined}} Sitting and staring out the window, wondering what my life has come too. The possibilities abound yet they seem as if they are too far to reach. A glimpse of hope flutters by only to be snatched away with a simple movement of the wind. All my life I have done the right thing, been the right person, and altered what I could to make the world for myself and those I love a true possibility. I once was with someone that I cared a great deal about. We where in a place we shouldn’t have been but […]

Snow Wimp

{{journal_mood relaxed}} Well the idea of snow got the best of me and I headed off home. Actually it started to snow a bit harder and though it was only .trying’ to stick, I was worried about the hills around my place. So instead of sitting there stressing about it, I decided I would leave. Traffic was a mess and it took almost an hour and half to get home so leaving early was probably a good idea all the way around. I did get a surprise call from Boy Wonder today. It was a great call; I wish he […]

Seattle Pre-Snow

{{journal_mood ditzy}} It’s trying to snow here in Seattle. I keep hoping it will start to stick but I might not get so lucky for a while. If it does start to stay on the ground (or get worse), I am out of here and headed home! The hills around my house aren’t that bad but they are enough for my car to loose traction trying to get up them. There is no way in the world I am going to leave my car parked at the bottom of the hill until it stops. I’d take it over to a […]

The Weekend

{{journal_mood stressed}} Woo…Hoo! Thursday, one more day and then the weekend which is kind of odd for me to be excited about since the weekend usually is filled with boredom followed by more boredom. Actually, what I find interesting is that I am excited about the weekend because it has become such a social norm to be .looking forward to the weekend’. In America it just seems that we spend far too much time working and trying to get out of work that our personal time is reduced down to the deep desire to relax and enjoy life after five […]

Catch-22

{{journal_mood sleepy}} I’m tired. I haven’t been going to bed at a good time … thanks Hermes for keeping me awake talking until the wee hours of the night not that I didn’t need the support. I just got off the phone with Opus. It was so very nice to talk to him and finally speak about what happened in the past and even about the current. It was nice to hear about his life and that it is going well. I’ve really missed talking to him; I just wish I didn’t have all these things looming over me. I […]