Journal

{{journal_mood sick}} I’m so tired right now. Even typing is difficult, my poor fingers feel num and disorientated. I stayed up way to late last night playing online with Boy Wonder. I am not even sure why I did it, well … yes I do, and it was fun for the last couple hours but before that it was annoying and very much not fun. I’m kind of trying to figure out what was so weird; there were several things that bothered me. When I got home, Boy Wonder was asleep because his neck was bothering him and he took […]

{{journal_mood exhausted}} I’m feeling really hurt and let down right now. What’s more upsetting, it’s over something really stupid. But it’s not really that stupid because it is the underlying problem and the reason for most of the pain and sorrow that I seem to be constantly facing. As much as I do understand people and the events around me, it always amazes me to see others ignoring the simplest of things that have such huge impacts on one’s life. Perhaps we do get set in our ways as we get older and I am just one of the lucky […]

{{journal_mood calm}} {{journal_location At a desk, in a cube listening to the Partridge Family … just don’t ask …}} The weekend has come and gone. I’m very grateful that it is over. There are so many things in my life that are in a stage of movement that trying to get them all done is sometimes a nightmare. Saturday I got in to it with Boy Wonder. I didn’t want to and tried to get out of it but he wouldn’t let me back down. I give him high marks for that but it was rough as a side of […]

{{journal_mood angry}} {{journal_location Headache’s Ville}} Friday…. You know, I us to be one of the types who looked forward to the weekend, it was my one chance to relax and enjoy. However, now days I can’t stand the weekend and would rather be doing anything else … even work sounds more appealing then a weekend. If you’ve been reading the journal then you’d know just how sad that is. Plans for the weekend, nothing. I have to be online Saturday to for the guild of players in the game we all play on and help run them through instances. I […]

{{journal_mood okay}} {{journal_location In front of another computer}} I thought about what I wrote yesterday, how it sounded and how I felt. I gave some thought on my actions and what "I" want to do about it. And, well, nada. I’m not depressed but I am down and I am sad. I just had hoped by now that things would have started to get better and life would be moving in a more positive direction. I told Sex Hound a while back that on July 15th I was going to make some harsh decisions on my future. In a sense […]

{{journal_mood sad}} {{journal_location Icky Work}} I can’t tell if I am angry, upset, hurt or pissed-off. Maybe it’s all of them or maybe it’s one in the same. This whole week, starting around the weekend, I’ve been feeling the twist of time unraveling plans and decisions. Yes, I know very well what is happening and even more so on how to fix them but what’s so different at the moment is that I don’t really care to fix them. Well, perhaps care isn’t the correct word but my motivation is simply exhausted. For what seems an eternity I have been […]

{{journal_mood amused}} {{journal_location Home damn it…now leave me be!}} I find that I ponder things lots more than I us to. Perhaps that is me getting old or perhaps it’s the constant desire to always improve and grow. Life is not as easy as it once was, just a few years ago I could easily pickup and move without a care in the world, now I have so many responsibilities. I us to just jump in the car and drive, though I still do, I find that now days I have to think twice about who might need something or […]

{{journal_mood drained}} So … an update. Hmmm. It’s been a long time since I wrote anything here, over seven months. Well, as everyone knows or should know by now … I love to write! So catching everyone up won’t be to much of a problem. I doubt I’ll do it all in this post but who knows. I’m really liking this new offline editor. It saves as I go and is always running. I can basically type a little, take a break and then type some more when I return. Nifty aye? First things first. Mood and all that, I […]

{{journal_mood uncomfortable}} {{journal_location Watching the blue skies of Seattle outside my window.}} I still have the update entry coming but what’s cool is that I started it the other night, wrote on and off but still have some thoughts to add. With this program … it’s just sweet, I wanted to write about something else so my original post is sitting aside until I get back to it. Anyway, on with my current ramble. It’s a lazy Saturday right now and I could be online gaming but instead I thought I would take a nap. Napping for me during the […]

{{journal_mood amused}} {{journal_location Sitting at home putzing…}} I haven’t written anything in a long time and I need to change that. However, I am not going to do that right this minute. Instead I figured I’d write up a quick entry for anyone still peaking in and let you know that I am still here. Lots has changed and I have lots to write about. Also, I had a few of the past couple entries marked private so no one could see them. I’m not sure why I did that but at the time I probably was just worrying about […]