{{journal_mood disappointed}}

I didn’t go to the coast; I ended up driving around and chatting with Sex Hound for several hours. It was a great conversation and incredibly helpful. It was just nice to get to catch-up and share about stuff in both our lives. Plus he’s one of those friends that I can talk about guys with and we both can start drooling without anyone looking at us funny. I can’t wait until we have some time to go do something; our conversation brought back the fun of us hanging around and just boy watching for a while. Another favorite activity of mine that I let slip my mind!

As for me…. Well, it’s almost 3 am and I can’t sleep. I am really upset and hurt right now. Not by Sex Hound but by some stuff that I realized after I got home from my drive. I am not going to go in to details, I could be wrong and honestly hope I am but right now I just want to scream and punch something. Sometimes I wonder if people really know just how good I am with computers and just what you can find out usually by accident when you’re bored and have nothing better to do.

For me, that was what happened, clicking to see what things did and noticed something odd. Let’s just say, someone purposely removed me from their friends list and then lied about it. It could be a mistake or a glitch but I know computers and how most of these things work far better than I let on. It’s a pretty hard mistake to make by the computer system; you pretty much have to do it yourself.

I am really kind of upset about it, removing me is one thing. But then to lie about it and say you have no idea what happened, which very well could be true but the chances are incredibly slim, really hurts. At this point I am so mad and upset I just want to go and give them a piece of my mind and then follow that up with a punch to the face just so I feel better. But at the moment I can’t do anything about it as they are offline and unless I wanted to call them and wake them up (which I would put up in the "Ghost is Now More Psycho" category) I just need to move on till I talk to them next.

I don’t know, if someone doesn’t want to talk to me that is fine. Yes upsetting but they have their reasons and well, there loss. But when I noticed it several days ago and asked them about it, they said "they had no idea what was up, we’ll just chat here and they would fix it later" only to find out that they actually removed me, basically making it so I wouldn’t even know they are online unless they used this other service (which they rarely use) and then doing this AFTER they made me add them on the new service (the one I am now deleted on) because they said they weren’t going to use the old service anymore. Ugg…. I don’t know … I am probably just being …. *insert very long and intense sigh*

Maybe I can get some sleep now that I typed this out. I am tired, just really feeling betrayed and used right now.