Note to self: NEVER EVER DO THE HOLIDAYS LIKE THIS AGAIN!
What a mess. I didn’t go to my Mom’s as planned. At the last minute my so-called partner changed his plans and actually asked me to stay at home. Being the stupid bleeding heart I did. It wasn’t too hard to twist my arm since I was worried about the car and I was dead tired when he asked.
As for the day, it started off ok but then it got worse. Just one more holiday with me and someone I am neither really romantic nor interested in really chatting with. That slowly but surely ate away at my defenses and walls, by the time I was making dinner I was shaking from the emotional turmoil building in me. I am still a bit shaken by my emotions right now; they are kind of going crazy. From entertained to bored, I really want to do something, anything, just get out of the house and … and … and … well, that’s the problem, do what?
All in all, besides the emotional train wreck I feel I am going through it wasn’t too bad. I kept my wits about me and occupied my mind best I could. I wish I could have done better but I think it’s time to start searching for new hobbies. Everything I enjoy doing seems dull and done. I did buy and try out a new game, interesting but it will be cancelled. Nice graphics and all but the interface was just annoying and gave me a headache.
I did a bunch of web surfing after a bit and curiosity seeking. It always fascinates me with what you can find on the Internet. Lots of stuff out there to read and do, actually after a while I lost track of time and can finish this day soon.
Some of my time was spent thinking and I came to a realization that those who really do care, make an effort to show they care. I’m not trying to make a dig at anyone but it was nice to hear from some friends and family, I need to remember that as I progress through life and really need to decide on some fates for myself.
Otherwise that was my day, a bit sad and almost depressing but in the end, it was just another day. Next year I have to make some changes and I really need to get my butt in gear, the year will be up before I know it. I don’t want to repeat this again, it’s taxing and it’s hard. I still have Christmas coming up so that will be my first challenge. I’ve promised my family I will come down which I should have done for Thanksgiving.
One final note, I got bored and kept seeing this quiz around so I decided to try it. Spidey was my all time favorite hero when I was a kid and I would high-tale it home each day after school not to miss an episode on TV. Odd how I ranked up there with him… Kind of made me chuckle. Batman is my next fiction hero, as for who ranked as two on this thing, interesting! Oh he’s cute and all but well … maybe … hmmm.
| You scored as The Amazing Spider-Man. After being bitten by a radioactive spider, Peter Parker was transformed from a nerdy high school student into New York’s greatest hero. Peter enjoys the thrill of being a super hero, but he struggles with the burdens of leading a double life. He hopes someday to win the heart of his true love Mary Jane, the woman he’s loved since before he even liked girls. Right now, he just wants to make it through college and pay his bills.