I got a response tonight. It was basically silence followed by nothing. It really hurts to care for someone and find out they could careless about you. I wish I could say I am stronger for it but really I am just … kind of dead inside right now.
I have let down a friend today, I feel like I should be shot. But then I couldn’t continue the way it is, though I was willing to try if truth be told. The saddest part is, I know that the other person simply just blew it off. I am not sure what hurts more.
You know that feeling when it feels like your heart is dead or dying? That is what mine feels like right now.