I woke up with a terrible headache today and the feeling of total exhaustion. I think I’ll take a day off from work to sleep and let my head clear. I am not sure what I want to write today, I ran across some old writings I did last year and that kind of made me sad. One was very good, sometimes I surprise myself with how well, I can write but it just seems that I always take the hardest roads in life, I want the hardest things and I never seem to just take things simple.
I don’t know, I just want something to be easy for a change and not feel like I have to work for it constantly. But alas, those have been my choices. I think that is because if I don’t feel like I worked for it and struggled to get it, it wasn’t worth it. I wish I wasn’t like that.