Sick at home…

{{journal_mood stressed}}

Being sick, having terrible headaches and feeling lost really don’t make for good days. I slept most of the day away and pretty much going to go back that direction in a few. Figured I’d done so good updating this thing I should put in something for today.

Had a great long conversation with my Utah friend, I needed that and he is a good listener as I whined about things. I did take a drive, I really needed to get out of the house and figured since I was feeling a tad bit better both mentally and physically I would take the opportunity to get out and get some fresh air.

It was nice, chatted with my friend and drove around a bit. I hit up Capital Hill (the gay district) here and I have to admit, it was like coming home. I think I have just been so detached with who I really am these last few years I forgot the fun that sits outside my door. It felt good to be back on the hill even though it seemed very dead there unlike when I us to visit.

Kind of disappointed my friend here still doesn’t want to go out and do something or even go to dinner. I was really hoping that he’d call today and say lets go but he didn’t. I want to say Hi to him online right now but it just seems lately he’s pre-occupied and I am more a nuisance so I guess I will just let him be. Honestly, I feel really sad and hurt, I miss him but I know he cares about me in his odd way (sorta … or maybe its wishful thinking, I just don’t know with him), he’s just lost in his world so patient I will be.

My other friends want me to come into this other game they are playing but I just don’t have the energy right now for that game.